She clicked on a recent post. A selfie. Kat was looking directly into the camera, no smile, just a level, knowing gaze. Her hair was a mess. Mascara was faintly smudged. And her eyes held a question Lena couldn’t articulate. The caption read: “Who’s watching?”
It wasn’t envy, at least not the sharp, bitter kind. It was a deeper, stranger pull, like reading a diary left open on a park bench. kat_licious
She imagined Kat, somewhere in a similarly dark room, scrolling through her own analytics. Seeing a single username— lena_scribbles —hovering over her stories at 2:00 AM, night after night. Not liking, not commenting. Just… looking. She clicked on a recent post
Lena’s thumb froze an inch above the screen. A chill raced down her spine. She looked at the view count on the story she had just watched. It was just a number, anonymous and vast. But in that moment, the blue glow of the phone felt less like a window and more like a two-way mirror. Her hair was a mess
She had been Kat once. Or maybe she had never allowed herself to be. She was the version of Kat who organized her bookshelves by color, who RSVP’d “yes” to parties and then found a reason to cancel, who posted photos of sunsets because they were safe. Her own profile, lena_scribbles , was a museum of quiet things: a well-made bed, a perfectly centered coffee cup, a shelf of plants with not a single brown leaf.
Lena felt a twist in her gut. Not jealousy. Recognition.