He knows now: He did kill her. The heroin didn’t make him do it. The rage did. The shame of rejection did. And the justice system let him go not because he was innocent, but because the story the police and jury built wasn’t solid enough.
More importantly, the heroin in Ben’s system was at a level that would have rendered him unconscious for 6–8 hours. Forensic expert testimony suggests the murder likely occurred while Ben was in a deep nod , making it physically impossible for him to have committed the act. criminal justice season 1
Inside prison, Ben transforms. He stops being the meek boy. He learns to fight, to lie, and to survive. He also begins to remember fragments of the night: the argument, the knife in his hand, the look of betrayal in Mel’s eyes. He confides in Rashid: “I think I might have done it.” He knows now: He did kill her
But Ben doesn’t want to believe he’s a killer. He remembers Mel kissing him, then suddenly turning cold. He remembers her saying, “You’re just a boy.” He remembers pushing her… but the stabbing? A blank. Juliet Miller, a chain-smoking, sharp-tongued barrister who has seen every kind of guilty client, begins to doubt the prosecution’s case. She realizes that DI Munday suppressed evidence: Mel had a history of violent arguments with an ex-boyfriend, and her phone records show a call to that ex the night she died, after Ben passed out. The shame of rejection did
